Fuck meee

It's been literally years since i've made a post on this. So much has changed. I've been with adam for three years now, i honestly can't believe how much time has passed since we've been together. I never pictured myself a long term relationship person! Not only that but i'm engaged to him too! He proposed on our two year anniversary... We haven't actually talked about any of the wedding details yet, but then again it's probably far away so no hurry. I've also been working at super drug for a year! Yep, i've managed to stick to something! I know, i'm suprised too. Honestly it's not something i want to do for the rest of my life but hey ho gettin dolla and shit! I really feel like working there has helped build up my confidence because now i have little problems talking to people i don't really know. I feel like thats a good thing??? Another thing i'm doing at the moment is trying to lose weight. Think i'm doing pretty well so far as in around a month i've lost a stone and a bit! It is literally fucking torture because whenever i pass kfc on the way home i cry a little bit. I was 14 stone 6 and am now 13 stone 5 so progress! I'm telling you though weight watcher meals are hardly meals. One mouthful and it's gone

It's been a while. I know i've kept you waiting.

As the title says; it's been a while, ahaha. I kinda forgot about blogging for a bit? Hehe. But basically; bored out've my head right now.

Been excluded from school AGAIN. I know right, i'm just so badass ;) The reason i've been excluded is that i was caught smoking in school... And i swore multiple times at the teacher who caught me bahaha. Well, it's probably all the other shit i've done as well to be honest, not exactly the perfect student. But Yeahh, i smoke now. It's kinda a release thing. I'm not addicted, nowhere near. I do it coz i want too. And by the way; something that pisses me off is when people come up to me and say "Jamie, you don't smoke!" No... Clearly not... I just have a fag in my hand and i'm having tokes... Course not... (Y)

But yeah... Alot has happened within the past few months. Had a few arguments with a few close friends, but we've all recovered, which is a good thing. And i've gotten closer with a few friends... One who is meant to be coming over today... *cough* barefanny... *cough* Been through hell with emotions. Seriously, being a teenager is so hard. I wanna go back to being a kid. Where like the worst feeling was your mum telling you you can't have chocolate till after dinner... I don't know about you guys, but that was like the most depressing thing in the world for me. :/

As for that nobhead who i "was in love with" I'm dealing with that. Alot better then i thought i would. Which is good; coz he needs to sort it the fuck out to be honest ahaha. Ooh; i'm confused on my sexuality again bahaha... Liking your best friend is kinda awkward. Specially when she's dating a right dick :') I just wish my sexuality would make up it's freaking mind. "guys. girls. Oh no, i'm going to confuse you because i'm a twat like that." xD

Something else right. I've been told that people are bitching about me? If anyone like that reads this, grow some balls and say it to my face instead of behind my back. There's nothing more annoying then when people are too pussy to say stuff to you. Yeah? kthxbye.

But yeahh; Loving my life though at the mo. And it's thanks to some very good friends of mine that make my days rather enjoyable... These consist of;

Abigail Powell.
Kaylie Smith.
Adam Carpenter.
Beth Webb.
Sophie Bowers.
Katy Smith.
Paul Snelling.
Paige Knightley.
Amy Porter.
Alex Armstrong.

Seriously, these guys are my life. And just coz you're not up there doesn't mean i don't care... Well, for some people thats probably what it means. Ilavchuuu guys. <3

Catch me if you can, tonight.

Yoo Yoo Yoo', It's Britney bitch. LOLJK It's Jamie. Anyways; Sitting at home right now with nothing to do, so i thought to myself "Hey, haven't done a blog in a while? Why not? xD " So here it goes. It seems everytime i write a blog alot of things seem to have changed since the last entry... Well this is no different i guess. So i'm still at E.P, even though i'm currently trying to be kicked out without making it too obvious that i wanna get kicked out? Such as bunking lessons, mouthing off teachers, etc :') The teachers are trying to make my life hell, but then again i am bringing this upon myself ahaha. Noone actually believes me when i say i don't care about school. They're like "But Jamie; You need good gcse's, Otherwise you won't get a good job" blablabla. But i really don't care. The way i see it, school is a waste of time. And i'm sure i'm not the only one who thinks that. I've come out as gay as well... I find it rather funny how people think that by calling me "gay" and "faggot" that i get offended? Well not really. I don't care what anyone else thinks, my opinion is the only one that matters. Yes, i like guys. And that isn't up to me. And even if it was? I wouldn't change a thing. :') I'm not afraid of who i am. And neither should anyone else be. I'm not exactly the most religious person out there, but i believe in god. And i believe that he made everyone perfect, so all the heavily christian people who say being gay is "wrong" or "immoral" are just contradicting themselves. Love who you are. People that give you shit should just go play in traffic. Me personally? I've got no time for no haterrzz. If you love me, thank you. If you hate me, well fuck you. I don't need those pathetic little bitches in my life anyway. Build a bridge, get on top off it, and jump off. (But to all those really good friends of mine, stay away from that god damn bridge! D:) So i've like got blonde hair now. Well, yellowy blonde. I'm making it blonder in a few weeks. Some people are like "Wow; blonde hair really suits you Jamie!" a few others are like "Meh; you look better with dark hair." if i'm honest, the dark hair is what i wanted to get away from. It's so bland and boring. Which is why i went red, and am now blonde. Speaking of getting away... My best friend is going on holiday in a few weeks... I really don't know how i'm gonna survive without her, seeing as we like don't really spend any days apart... I'm gonna miss her so much. She's like my sister. Even though we're much more then that. And if the heartless bitch cared about me at all, she wouldn't do this to me. Ahaha; Anywayss... I'm gonna end this blog with a list of Random facts and stuff about meh, coz i'm fepic ;D

1. I hate Bullshitters/Twofaced little bitches.


2. I would die for my best friend.


3. I have a "I don't give a fuck" kinda attitude.


4. I'm in love with hello kitty. (I even has hello kitty socks! :O)


5. I would do illegal things to Andy Sixx.


6. I hate change.


7. I have Twilight posters in my room. (Yes, i like twilight. And what.)


8. Me and my best friend have a strange habit of saying things at the same time and knowing what the other is thinking.


9. I <3 The Millionaires.


10. I have Mega mood swings alot of the time.


11. I'm hard to scare.


12. I can't cry in front of people Unless I'm physically hurt.


13. I'm pretty selfish. Unless it comes to people i really care about.


14. I'm not a fan of death metal.


15. People who try to hard piss me off.


16. I'm a pretty good Liar.


17. I like trains :3


18. Sometimes i think life is pointless.


19. I do the stupidest things to cheer myself up.


20. I would Kill someone for a subway right now.

Ahaha; Hope you enjoyed That.

CatchYaLaterzz; <3

We're Teenagers, We count the years we think we're smart.

Heyy whores and sluts ;D Just Kiddin'. But yeah, Time for another blogging seshh me thinks <3

Okay, So i've had quite alot of stuff in my mind at the moment. Such as friends, relationships, school, yanno, basically typical mind of a teenager really. Not been the happiest recently 'cause of these topics, ahaha. But I've done alot more thinking.

As i've mentioned before, the friends department is a bit fucked right now. I feel distant from some of my.. well, i thought they were my closest friends. But to be honest, if they're gonna ditch me for someone else who comes along, then they're not worth my time. And besides; i has the amazing Abi Powell & Julian Randall. They make up for it :3

Relationships... Dear god ahaha. Well i've been upset about this one guy for a few months now. And all he's done is fucked me around. So i've just been moping around and shit... But then, again, i started thinking. Why do i wanna be with a guy who just fucks me around all the time? And he's just not himself anymore. He's trying too hard to be something he's not. I'm so much better off without him anyway. And there's probably gonna be more guys/girls in my life anyway, I'm 15. I've got my whole life ahead of me. :)

School. Every Teenagers nightmare. Exams, learning, gcses, the lack of individuality allowed... Basically, Hell on earth. :') Not gonna lie, I'm not doing to well in school. Might be the fact that i have a bit of an attitude on me? Haha. So yeah, i moved back to e.p. Where my head of house was constantly breathing down my neck and trying to use every excuse possible to kick me out. Like i had a jacket that wasn't black, some skull gloves, and a hat. I wasn't wearing them, coz i know i'm not allowed to in school. Mrs Moloney saw them and tried confiscating them. This was wear i drew the line and started sticking up for myself. Obviously, the bitch didn't like that, ahaha. My friend Dannii has bright fucking pink hair, and Mrs Moloney done shit all about it. Good thing my parents are on my side aye? :')

So basically, I don't give a fuck anymore. I'm gonna live my life, I'm gonna do what i want. And let NOBODY get in the way of that. So Love and haters can Kiss my ass :)

" It's in the air now,

Bitter tears and broken hearts.

We're teenagers,

We count the years,

we think we're smart, but we're not.

We Don't know anything." <3>

That's all really...

Buh bye fo naoo guys <3

I am NOT scene.

OhHaii ;D





So, something that really bothers me... Happens to be stereotyping. It bothers me 'coz it happens to me alot, and others too. So i've decided to blog a little about it.





We've all probably been stereotyped at one point or more (probably more) in our lives. I know i have. I get called things like emo, scene kid, goth, etc. Just because you look a certain way, listen to a certain type of music, BOOM. People have to go and stereotype you.





A few examples;





If you wear bright colours, listen to bands like Brokencyde, Millionaires, Blood on the dancefloor, (I actually like them, soo) or shit like that, you're considered to be a scene kid.





If you wear all black, listen to my chemical romance, paramore, 30stm, you have hair that is black and covers one eye, you're considered emo.





If you wear trackies, listen to rap, bla bla bla, you're considered a chav.





To be really honest, stereotyping pisses me off so much. You really shouldn't judge a book by it's cover. Just coz someone dresses a certain way, or listens to a certain type of music, doesn't mean you have to be like "Yeah, whatta emo." or "Eww, chav. BRUUP." People have the right to be different without being tagged by others.





I mean, i had bright red hair, skinny jeans, purple and white hoodie, and i got people coming up to me and being like "OMG Jamie you're like, such a scene kid." Obviously, i yelled at them and told them to fuck off 'coz i hate being stereotyped xD But yeah. I'll dress the way i want. I'll have my hair how i want it. I'll listen to what i want. It doesn't make me a certain stereotype. It makes me Jamie. I'm myself and that's all i can and want to be. :)


Thanks for listening ;D

Buh byee :3

JamieInsanity

It's Jamie, Bitch.

Like Omggzz, It's been yonks since i've written a blog :') But hey guys ^^

So last time i wrote, I said I wasn't feeling too good. Well, i'm feeling alot better. I'm pretty happy to be honest. Of course, a few things have changed. I've lost a "best friend" if you will. I'm moving back to E.P to chill with the homies, awwh yeah. I've gotten alot closer with other people as well... Apparently Paramore are splitting up. Alright, let's talk about these subjects in more detail.

FIRSTLY. Paramore are NOT splitting up. I read in Kerrang that Hayley and the 2 remaining guys are looking for replacements for Josh And Zac. Therefore, STILL TOGETHER. So shut up with all this "Para-no-more." Yeah? Thanks. :)

As for the best friend thing? Yeah... Me and her had an argument just before new years i think? Basically she thought she knew what was best for me, and did something kinda drastic. I don't blame her to be honest, she wanted me to recover... But that really wasn't the way to do it. So the end of our argument was her telling me to commit suicide, which is always a good thing, ya know? Ahaha xD

And as for school... School... Brakenhale is just plain shit. The teachers basically have no idea how to control a class/teach at all... The students are basically gormy little bullshitters, sluts with buckets, and dirty little rat boys who think they're cool. Ah well, Back To E.P for me. I\ve missed a few people Like Jade, Emma, Jack, Jess, Helen, and all that. :')

Friendlings... I've gotten closer to a few people, whilst managing to drift apart from others. Some i care about, some (not so much.) But one Chick i've gotten really close too recently is a right Gorm. LOLJK.

Abigail 'Boom Boom' Powell; ;D

LOL Abi, sorry. Had to put that in there. But basically i just wanna quickly say that I love how close we are right now. Our little jokes do make me laugh :') Being with you just automatically lifts my mood. I just love nomming on cheese and dressing up like a dork with this chick. She's just amazing.

LavvChuuNerdGirl. <3

Right, that's all fo' nao.

I'ma try write one Tommorow.

PEACE OWWT <3

I Must Confess, I'm in love with my own sins.

Heyy again... I know I haven't done a new blog in a few months, but yeah.

Right. So right now, I'm not going through the best time at the moment. And i've been doing alot of thinking about my life, and who i want to be. I was thinking about changing myself, ya know, personality, my looks, the lot. I wanted to be an entirely new person. I asked around about what people thought about me; I got told a few things such as;

"You're an alright guy, but you can be a dick sometimes."

"You're a good friend, but a shit boyfriend."

"You're far too bitchy."

Stuff like that really. So yeah, i was reflecting on myself as a person, thinking about what i could do to improve myself, but then a thought suddenly popped into my head; "Why the fuck should i improve myself, just to please other people?" I mean, yeah. I'm not perfect. but then again, who is? Everyone has flaws about them. I'm gonna be myself. No matter what. Well, I would like to change a few things about my looks. But thats by choice... Oh, for those who didn't know, I bleached my hair around a week and a half ago, and dyed it pinky red. It was a fucking amazing colour. (There's a picture above.) But apparently it was an "outrageous" colour, according to my school. So they made me dye it a more acceptable colour. I'm sorry, but how does someones hair colour affect the way they learn? Bloody ridiculous. So i've decided, when i've left school, I'm getting snakebites, stretching my ear, and going fucking mental with my hair. :') It shouldn't matter what someone looks like, it's how they act and what sort of person they are that matters.

Also; Like i mentioned, I'm not going through a very good time at the mo. I'd like to thank one very special person. And that is the rather wonderful Dannielle Manchester. She's been a right babe :3 Looking after me, making sure i'm okay, trying to cheer me up, sticking up for me, and all that. Thank you so much. You have no idea how much it means to me. At least i know i can depend on you. :)

That's all for now, as my creative juices are somewhat running low (Hmm, Twistable!)

Peace out! <3